Why I Need to Blog

I'm a really private person, what brought me to want to share so publicly?

I've always been a writer, and I've always felt more comfortable expressing myself on the page than vocally. I also enjoy the written record, and being able to flip back to a piece, and reflecting on a point in time.

More importantly than my own need to share, I felt that I didn't have anyone to turn to that fully understood what I was going through. I've spoken to therapists, friends, loved ones, but never seem to be able to find the right answers by wholly relying on them. I needed a different outlet, one where I could reflect on my own experience, and hopeful progress, and reinvigorate myself by realizing I need to be my motivator. I can have cheerleaders, and people to catch me when I fall, but I have to stop relying on others to perform magic and make me feel better. I have to take action, and take control of my thoughts. The problem is... how do you fix something when you don't know how. All I know is me. I am my own constant, I am my enemy and my motivation, and I have to start being honest with myself.